Is it possible to hide in motherhood?

There is safety certainly in focusing on trying to make the little ones' journeys as comfy as possible. 

 Are they warm?  Have they eaten enough (of the 'right' stuff)?

Each birth has taken my multi tasking loving arms to a new level,  I have noticed in glimpses, the areas where having a large family leaves some gaps in what I can offer the individual child as well as where it offers great gifts.

Now i am purposefully making gaps by starting to allow my self to shine through, and it hurts!

It hurts to be exposed and in a steep learning curve.  It hurts to feel a little distance from the family. But I can trust this distance as my roots are here good and grounded in the earth.

Fall back into the roots to rest. 

I am enough 
true free guided 
safe loved warm
 Here.

Take your seat at the table

A few footpaths have led to this place where I take my seat at the table amongst the strong women around me,

I am exploring the question "Who is my tribe?"
And I found to my great sadness that I did not place myself in my own tribe!

So again I am at a new place in my journey and learning how to take that place, embrace the joys and challenges but at least be working from a basis of belonging, however messy that may be!